After Joan Larkin
I once wanted a river—to bend it
over my knee, my toes sinking into moss
as green and thick as shag carpet.
Now, I want an ocean, its salt
to brine me. I want one body
like bread, to sop up sun spilling
hot as egg yolk. I want language
the length of the day, to speak
in moons at night. I want a dog
and an open field. The dog and I
belong to each other. The field belongs
to no one—a wave of grain, I guess.
I want its gold shimmer. Then again,
the palm tree fronds do sparkle
no matter how strong the breeze.
It only gets green, then greener.
And when it is over, I want to
return, not as a ghost, but as dust:
a confetti in the dirt, then gone.
Stephanie Lane Sutton writes poetry, essays, and fiction. She is the author of *Shiny Insect Sex* (Bull City Press), a chapbook of flash fiction. Her writing has appeared in *The Adroit Journal*, *Black Warrior Review*, *The Offing*, and *DIALOGIST*, among others. Find her online at stephanielanesutton.com or tweeting @AthenaSleepsIn.